Along time...no write

It has been awhile since I have written on this thing....I can't believe that I have not done this..It usually makes me feel better.
It has been kinda a long semester....
To sum it all up in a couple sentences....Seizure, doctor visits, loss of two friends, school and stuff that is happening at home. ok I summed it up in one sentence.

My heart is really torn again
I feel like I am being ripped in two
Maybe more than two
I am supposed to be here at NGU
yet my heart aches to be home
I am trusting in the Lord
yet my human nature gets in the way
My heart is healing from the deaths
Physically I am still healing
Yet I still have a smile on my face
when I am crying inside
I am hurting and I hide it well
Trusting in the Lord for healing
That I can find peace and understanding
That is all I need...


Oh yeah my heart has been pasted on blog spot...No one actually reads this...I do not think...If they do I pray they see things through my eyes...I am tired of trying to share my emotions with the world when they do not care... I am me people, get used to it and start caring for others not just me.. An ear goes a long way..