Learning is what I do best...

Oh my gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My God is amazing.......I am learning that everyday...
He has been my rock and my strength when I have needed it...
He has time to listen to me when no one else does...and he is the most amazing listener ever..
He has given me words to say, when advice is needed to be given..
He has strengthed my faith and my wisdom....
He has my whole heart when I don't even know he had it...
He is teaching patience and having a loving heart when I don't want to..
I am starting to realize if I am commiting a sin...
He is teaching me who is a true friend and who isnt
He is preaparing my heart for the one who is going to be my husband...
He is showing one piece of the puzzle at a time... which I am thankful
God gives miracles at times that are needed....
Thank you God and continue to teach me and let me grow to be like you!!!!!!!

Reflecting...

September 11, 2008
Here I am pressing forward
To where God is leading….

He has gotten a hold of my heart
And changed my direction…

It feels like a 180 degree turn
I am seeing things in different light…

I am seeing beauty in situations
That I would have never before….

Yet I look over my shoulder
And I smile….

I see what God has done
For me….

I also see the pain and good times
I have no regrets…..

Looking back lasts for a short time
Because I am looking forward….

I am looking for what is ahead
I want to continue the journey….

I want to be a light
For Him…

I want to be his fingerprints
On this world for Him….

I want to give him the glory
And the praise that he deserves….

So look out people
Here I come….

last 30 days

about 4 weeks ago my life changed...My granddad had a triple bypass... I am so glad that he is still here with me. God is not ready for him to come home... He is still needed here. I am excited to see what he has in store for him and God is going to use him...
about 3 weeks ago I came back to my lovely school NGU! What a move! I am so at home there. I am a Ra, and what God is teaching is amazing! I love the community and family.. Thanks to them I feel so more at home.
about 2 weeks ago... Training/Freshman Orientation... I love my freshman girls on the hall. They are amazing friends and I had nothing to do with it. I give it to God... Before orientation, we had Training...this made the RAs mingle and become the family that we are. It is going to be an amazing semester...
Last week... Returning students move in and school starts.... I had to help check in the returning students... I gave out keys and worked with one of the new besties.. Shannon.. What fun!!! Yay my remaining friends moved in.. It was so amazing to see them and really excited about getting to know more about them as the semester goes along... School started and it is going to be a tough semester, but will be amazing...
Past week... Just school and RA stuff

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Home is where the heart is..
Home has been amazing these last couple of days.. Finally finished unpacking and starting to work... I have a new job and will continue to work at Wendys... The new job is a change which is a start.. I am expecting so much change.. i am being impatient about it.. I guess I need to slow down and let God change me when the change is needed.. I am needing change... what is there else to say.. Change Change...

Ready to Go

Only 18 days left.... until the semester ends.. What a glorious day that will be. I can be home and be there for my family. To me sometimes prayers are just not enough. I need to be home with them. I am not dissing prayers or anything bc God has everything under control. Which I love or I would be going crazy. It is hard to be here and school where my heart is back home. One day, my heart will stay with me and not be torn in 2 places. God has taught me alot by trusting him in everything. All it takes is a lil faith as small as a mustard seed. So even tho I am ready to go, I have/will take this semester as a great learning experience!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On my knees

I am on my knees...
wondering what to do..

Sin has given me this..
How am I to use it

for your glory...
Father i am on

my knees...
Tonight my hands

are raised high
Hold me and tell

me what to do..
Father I am on

my knees..
I give it all to you...

Lucky Me

here is another of my poems....


Once I found that 4 leaf clover,
I knew that I was lucky..
To have you as a friend…
Lucky Me.
We placed that clover in the scrapbook
And wrote the words…
Lucky Us…
We never knew the real meaning
I realized it later
When you were gone….
Lucky Me
I will see you again…
When we meet in heaven
Then we can hunt the clovers all day long…
Lucky Me…
To have an amazing friend…

In loving memory of Amy Michelle Parris 3-18-04
3/24/08

Change...

Change..... Is great! We all change at different times and for the better and sometimes for the worst, but change has been great for me. I went home this paast week for spring break and I realized how much I have changed in the last couple of months. My friends noticed the change and kind of did not want to hang out. I felt abandoned and without my family. Where were they? I don't understand why change has to scare them off, but I want to change. God is doing the changing, and I gotta love it. So my friends are you willing to accept the change or do we have to end the friendship? which i don't want to do because I love you guys so much!!!!! We are all changing and growing, we have to stick together and change together!
Change... haha!

Curve Ball....

Life has thrown several curve balls in the mix of my crazy world! God has thrown them to me I know to see how well I will trust in him to take care of me. I know he will do this!!! He has and will always will! I fully surrender everything and hide underneath the cross. I won't let go! Take them and give me the strength I need! I am scared, but stay near me and there won't be a need of that. I am confused, so confused. What am I to do? Carry me throughout these trials, this is all I ask! Jesus don't let go! Thank you so that I do not have to worry about anything. I am asking for the guidance that I am seeking. I understand that I need to wait for answers, I want them now, but God please take the want from me. Piece me at the pace you want! God thank you for your love and your strength! Thanks for all you are! In Your Son's name Amen!

Rough Days

Grr It has been a rough day! Test, quiz, long class, pain! grrr! when does it stop? My life! I hate to ask why? so i aint!!! I have had worse days though!!! God is all I need to rely on!!!! yay!!!! sorry had to vent!!!! peace out!!!

Broken

Broken:
God you saw me broken.
You pieced me back together
What a day What a day!
My heart was whole again!
I lived my life for you such a short time
I was letting go of the cross.
You cried No as I slipped away further away
I can almost hear those distant cries.
You watched from afar and shook your head,
but I ignored you for so long
Why I would scream when something went wrong
I blamed you for the pain and misery.
You waited and waited
Again I fell to my knees broken!
Again God you saw me broken
You pieced me back together.
I am hidden underneath the cross
and never letting go..

My Poem

Cursed I came into this world
Badly beaten and broken
The doctors called it cerebral palsy.
Mama and Dad didn't know what to do.
The docs said that I would live a "normal" life.
They were wrong.
They haven't seen my tears, pain, struggles and loneliness.
I wanted to be mad at God for doing this to me.
He held me in his arms and said I love you,the way you are.
Why I begged to know, but in time was the reply.
In the time, I am finding out what his plan is for me.
Being cursed has become my blessing.
I still struggle with tears, pain, struggles and loneliness sometimes..
But stronger I have become and will become.
He has shown me so many different things,that other people won't understand.
I'll never understand most of what he has shown,
but I know that he is what is best for me.
He has made me the way I am.
Cerebral palsy won't take me down..
Thank you God for the curse that is my Blessing.

Weekend is here!

What a week!!!!!!!! It has been crazy! I feel like I haven't seen anyone at all, and I am not avoidin them, just being busy! Argh! I am on duty this weekend and guess what I am having to do more schoolwork! But it is still gonna be a good one! Not much planned, but relaxation is always good!!! Miss home a lot, but I am going there in a week! wahoo! well i shouldnt even be on here, but ya kno i needed a distraction! Peace out!!!

Snow day!!

We just got done having 2 snow days! what excitement came over the whole campus! we never get snow here! We were so excited about not having class!!! We spent the day sleddin, throwin snowballs, buildin snowmen and women! Over all the campus was so beautiful. It will be a such a day to remember and how created snow to make a beautiful sight!!!! It is just amazing!!!! Tomorrow starts a new week, and can't wait till God reveals something this week!!! Peace out yall!!!!!

What a start of the year!

I finally quit work on the 3rd to come back to school on the 6th! I have a new job as an Resident Assistant(RA). I love all the girls in the dorm. The school load is heavy and with being the RA it is a little heavier, but God is in control and He wants me to do this, so the strength is comin from him!!!!! Yay for not my own strength!!! Growin is what going to happen and I am excited.. Training starts this weekend, can't wait to get started! I can't wait to see what God has planned!!! That is enough 4 now!!!! Peace out!!