The Look

You looked at me
differently today

I have never seen
this look before

It cut like glass
It cut real deep

I feel the pain
I am broken

Tears fall
as the look continues

but yet
I can't look away

Never be the same

I am in the distance
watching you

Your weakness
has broken through

As a tear rolls down
your cheek

You have brought the distance
and things will never the same

Thoughts

Thoughts are evil
They keep you in a bind
You want to run
but they follow
Oh God stop this
take this evil away

I need a getaway car!!! Seriously I can't take this anymore. I am completely shattered and God is the only to see it. I am glad that I can play a role that I am such a happy person... I want someone to notice, but what is the point, when no one takes time to listen. Oh well!!! I am glad that I have God to listen to me. I don't know if I should tell someone that I am not ok. I am just shattered. My heart is just bleeding and broken. The sad thing it is all not for me. Healing and understanding is something I am waiting on

Goodness what a day hehe!!! Seeing friends is soo much fun and just chillin is amazing....I am running circles in my head though about what is going on. I am not sure what to make of it all. I am bit worried about it all, but it will be ok. God is under control. He will take care of it all. That does not stop my human nature to think about it. Oh well!! I am not going to let it stop me from having fun and hopefully I can hide it well. If not, oh well!!! No reason to verbalize it, no one stops to listen anyway. oh goodness i better get going and write this stupid paper that I have to turn in tomorrow. Peace

You are not here
You just left

No words
Just silence

Yet I can still
feel your heart beat

You know why
because our hearts has the same rhythm

Friendship

My Friendships have been on my mind. Not to scare anyone I am not doubting any of my friendships. I am very happy to have my friends in my life. I am just looking at what my friends have brought and mean to my life. They have brought so much meaning to it, I am not the same person because of them. Honestly I do not know what they see in me. I am this crazy kid with crazy ways, but they love me. The reason I am friends with each of them is the fact of their hearts. I see behind the superifical stuff and go straight for the heart. I see some amazing beautiful people. If yall ever wanted to know why, that is my reasoning. If any of yall read this, i am glad and not oh well!!! Friendships are meaning to life and more than words can describe.