Lucky Me

here is another of my poems....


Once I found that 4 leaf clover,
I knew that I was lucky..
To have you as a friend…
Lucky Me.
We placed that clover in the scrapbook
And wrote the words…
Lucky Us…
We never knew the real meaning
I realized it later
When you were gone….
Lucky Me
I will see you again…
When we meet in heaven
Then we can hunt the clovers all day long…
Lucky Me…
To have an amazing friend…

In loving memory of Amy Michelle Parris 3-18-04
3/24/08

Change...

Change..... Is great! We all change at different times and for the better and sometimes for the worst, but change has been great for me. I went home this paast week for spring break and I realized how much I have changed in the last couple of months. My friends noticed the change and kind of did not want to hang out. I felt abandoned and without my family. Where were they? I don't understand why change has to scare them off, but I want to change. God is doing the changing, and I gotta love it. So my friends are you willing to accept the change or do we have to end the friendship? which i don't want to do because I love you guys so much!!!!! We are all changing and growing, we have to stick together and change together!
Change... haha!

Curve Ball....

Life has thrown several curve balls in the mix of my crazy world! God has thrown them to me I know to see how well I will trust in him to take care of me. I know he will do this!!! He has and will always will! I fully surrender everything and hide underneath the cross. I won't let go! Take them and give me the strength I need! I am scared, but stay near me and there won't be a need of that. I am confused, so confused. What am I to do? Carry me throughout these trials, this is all I ask! Jesus don't let go! Thank you so that I do not have to worry about anything. I am asking for the guidance that I am seeking. I understand that I need to wait for answers, I want them now, but God please take the want from me. Piece me at the pace you want! God thank you for your love and your strength! Thanks for all you are! In Your Son's name Amen!

Rough Days

Grr It has been a rough day! Test, quiz, long class, pain! grrr! when does it stop? My life! I hate to ask why? so i aint!!! I have had worse days though!!! God is all I need to rely on!!!! yay!!!! sorry had to vent!!!! peace out!!!

Broken

Broken:
God you saw me broken.
You pieced me back together
What a day What a day!
My heart was whole again!
I lived my life for you such a short time
I was letting go of the cross.
You cried No as I slipped away further away
I can almost hear those distant cries.
You watched from afar and shook your head,
but I ignored you for so long
Why I would scream when something went wrong
I blamed you for the pain and misery.
You waited and waited
Again I fell to my knees broken!
Again God you saw me broken
You pieced me back together.
I am hidden underneath the cross
and never letting go..

My Poem

Cursed I came into this world
Badly beaten and broken
The doctors called it cerebral palsy.
Mama and Dad didn't know what to do.
The docs said that I would live a "normal" life.
They were wrong.
They haven't seen my tears, pain, struggles and loneliness.
I wanted to be mad at God for doing this to me.
He held me in his arms and said I love you,the way you are.
Why I begged to know, but in time was the reply.
In the time, I am finding out what his plan is for me.
Being cursed has become my blessing.
I still struggle with tears, pain, struggles and loneliness sometimes..
But stronger I have become and will become.
He has shown me so many different things,that other people won't understand.
I'll never understand most of what he has shown,
but I know that he is what is best for me.
He has made me the way I am.
Cerebral palsy won't take me down..
Thank you God for the curse that is my Blessing.

Weekend is here!

What a week!!!!!!!! It has been crazy! I feel like I haven't seen anyone at all, and I am not avoidin them, just being busy! Argh! I am on duty this weekend and guess what I am having to do more schoolwork! But it is still gonna be a good one! Not much planned, but relaxation is always good!!! Miss home a lot, but I am going there in a week! wahoo! well i shouldnt even be on here, but ya kno i needed a distraction! Peace out!!!